Hey Everyone!
For the past three weeks, my family and I have been living in a constant state of "limbo-ness". We know what direction we want our family to take and which activities we want the girls to participate in, however those decisions must be put on hold, while we analyze the difference financially between part-time work and full-time work with childcare. In essence, I have the opportunity to go back to work, (I'm of course waiting to hear back from various potential employers), but I'm trying to figure out if working full-time is worth the price to pay for someone else raising my kids, or if part-time work is worth the logistical juggling I would have to do everyday to balance four different schedules. This leaves me in a catch-22 because I cannot start the girls in their activities which would strengthen their development until I start working, but by going to work, I am no longer with them to oversee that development as throughly as I would like. Of course, if my husband were to suddenly have a ten thousand dollar increase in pay this would be a moot point, but as things stand now, I'm forced to make the best decision for my family based on what I feel would solve the highest number of problems without creating a new set of problems.
My family and I have a financial plan in place that will allow us to do what we need to do, and pay off all our bills on just my husband's salary, however, we'll be able to pay things off faster and still have money left over to play with if I was to work. Which brings me back to my original dilemma. Work full-time or work part-time? Obviously this needs more thought and more pieces need to fall into place. But in the meantime I'm learning that true maturity is being able to live with constant ambiguity.
In theory I'll have more of a set schedule by the end of September, but in the meantime, living in limbo has become life.
